MY SLEEPING ATTITUDE

i washed my blankets,bed sheets and pillow cases on sunday night..i also sent out my pillow under the sun to kill off the bacterias and to make it smell amazing.. (^_^)
my 'young housewife' mood was really at a peak...
but later on,..
sedih malam2 xda bed sheet and i cant use my pillow and blanket as well..Its warm during the day time but is not hot enough to completely dry them..so i slept on the floor and having backache next morning which is monday T_T
is there anybody else who cannot survive without her favourite pillow and blanket other than me?
hehe..actually i dont know since when i adopted this behaviour but since i was still a kid,i used to have my own blanket and pillow which my other siblings cant use it since it is mine..hihi
I love hugging my pillow..no,actually i love to hug something while im sleeping =_=' anywhere i go i will make sure i have atleast two pillows with me so that i can sleep on it and hug another one..but now i have six pillows in my bedroom..because i love pillows so much..hehe..tapi waktu pergi camping,since i cant bring along my pillow,so i will not sleep on my bag like others did but i'l rather hug the bag and lay down without anything to replace my pillow..i'l do the same when i only have one pillow with me..i will rather hug my pillow than sleeping on it..
I love blankets and i passionately in love with comforter..I think life will be great with awesome blankets and pillows...They are always there during moody days..i'l hug my pillow and inside the blanket and cry...sobs sobs sobs..
Other than pushing and kicking people while im sleeping i also have another bad sleeping attitude that only my relatives,siblings,roomates and friends knw ..haha.tidur xdiam tu dulu.tapi dah besar dah x tidur mcmtu dah =_=' kecik2 dulu je...sekarang dah kurang...but another attitude sampai skrg tak kurang is the attitude of hugging people who sleep beside me.i never did that on purpose,xtahu pun.i knw it bcs they will tel me later in the morning that I have actually hugged them .hahaha..because of ths one attitude my sister will put a barrier (one pillow) between us two while we were sleeping on the same bed..my cousin will do the same but only kak wani allows me to accidentally hug her when im sleeping..hehe..kak wani loves me.. :') selalu teman tidur..waktu zaman belajar time cuti sem kak wani selalu dtg rumah..she slept in my room.tiap2 malam berborak sebelum tidur and kebiasaannya kite akn bgun lambat nk pergi sekolah  the next day..grrr...memories :')
Last semester i have one good junior whose room is infront of mine..Izzah suka lepak and tidur bilik kak aie sbb my roomate like to stay up every night.they both will teman each other.kadang2 x sedar pun tiba2 izzah ada dekat sebelah..Bukti Kurus..kikiki eventhough our bed is not that big but two people can still sleep on the same small bed..hehe..since the first day she slept on my bed i always save a space for her every night..tapi since that day roomate suka tangkap gmbr curi2..and panggil kami lesbian..because i will always bagun tidur and sedar yg i hugged her the whole night..lawak gila..hehe..and pillow entah kemana..maybe memang dah naturally suka tidur hugging things dari kecik that attitude stays with me until now..I think, i feel safe when someone is around..and when i miss someone i'l also hug my pillow..when im sad i will always want my best people to hug me so that i feel warm and calm...shima always did that to me..she is a real friend when chubby or kak wani are not around...and shima wouldnt mind if i sleep and hug her .. haha..i hope my future husband wouldnt mind this as well..i wanna sleep in his arms every night,lay my head on his chest deeply breathing in the scent of him..yeayyy..okay nak selit jugak tu..hihi...okay bye... another stupid sleeping atitude is ,kalau time stress i wil always mengingau..haha..ckp merepek2 n scared everyone around..paling teruk i wil wake up,talk to them n continue to sleep back..haha..

being with the one we love,life will be happier

Alhamdullilah Tq Allah

Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah.

Last Friday was the Dean’s Award Ceremony. I felt so happy because even though getting a dean’s award might seem like a usual thing to some people, the faculty still made an effort to celebrate the students' achievements and give us motivation to keep improving and maintaining our performance. Ecewah  why do I sound so formal? Oh right, because I imagined I was speaking on TV… haha!

At first, I felt a little down.
You know how it is sitting in a hall full of brilliant people makes you feel so small.
Even though my CGPA dropped a little, I’m still so grateful that Allah gave me the rezeki to receive the dean’s award again. Grateful for whatever I get  because we all know it wasn’t easy to achieve. Each of us knows how hard we worked. :’)

Thinking back to the previous semester’s awards, I still feel excited  I never expected to be named Best Student for my batch. Honestly, my pointer wasn’t even that outstanding compared to other winners from different batches but still  I was extremely grateful. I think it’s really good that the faculty creates awards like that, it pushes students to compete in a good way. And healthy competition isn’t a bad thing.
This semester, someone else got the award . Ila received it because she got a 4.0 flat. I’m happy for her, although of course a little sad that I didn’t get it again… haha.

But, Allah is so generous . I was honestly not expecting anything this time. When the results came out, we only knew the grades   not the marks. So when I ended up receiving two additional awards, I was so shocked and touched  and shy, haha. When I went on stage, I was flustered and panicked from the surprise. Thank you Madam Naimah Zaini and Sir OZ for teaching me Costing and AIS, I was deeply moved..

Who wouldn’t be happy? Two certificates and two extra gifts  motivational books. Alhamdulillah..

Blake Shelton - Who Are You When I'm Not Looking (Official Video)

i find this quite a special song..because the man is wondering how his woman behaves when he is not around ....sweet

post ala2 org dewasa sikit. blushing**

okay today i wanna talk about babies..how many of you melt if u see a very cute baby giving their first grin at you?hehe,its too adorable to resist kan?so here are some photos of my anak buah (as in) anak my cousins.. sgt seronok sebenarnya bila dah berumah tangga and dikurniakan zuriat sbb anak2 pengikat kasih syg ibu bapa..Walaupun kedua2 suami isteri tu belum cukup ilmu keibu bapaan tapi bila sama2 belajar and membesarkan anak sama2 itu adalah pengalaman paling manis buat suami isteri..hihi..melting okayy tgk lelaki muda walaupun yang belum kawin dukung budak kecik..omaigoddd what a lovely and caring guy he is..ecewahh.. tapi ada jugak pasangan yg x dikurnikan rezeki cahaya mata..sedih kn..tapi tu mungkin ujian dari Allah.supaya manusia bersabar dan tak putus asa dengaNya.Jgn berhenti berdoa.Cepat atau lambat Allah pasti akan mengabulkn doa kita asalkan kita ikhlas dan betul2 berharap dgnNya..Anak merupakan saham dan aset buat ibubapa.Tambah2 anak yg soleh.

 'berdoalah kepadaku,nescaya akan aku perkenankan bagimu.Sesungguhnya orang-orang yg menyombongkan diri dari menyembah-ku akan masuk neraka Jahanam dalam keadaan hina-dina' (Al -mu'minun : 60 ) so apalagi,cepat2 berdoa dgn Allah and minta supaya doa kita diperkenankan..

okay doa apa yg boleh dibaca untuk mendapatkn zuriat ialah doa dari surah al anbiya ayat 89 : Dan ingatlah kisah Zakaria, tatkala menyeru TuhanNya: “ Ya Tuhanku, Janganlah engkau membiarkan aku hidup seorang diri (tidak mempunyai zuriat keturunan) dan Engkaulah waris yang paling baik (diserahkan segala urusan kepadaMu)(al-anbiya 89) 

amalkan lah doa ni selalu insyAllah nanti Allah bagi lah anak..my cousin dulu pun 5 tahun kawin x dapat anak..memang boleh nampak yg dua2 suami isteri tu mcm sunyi and selalu gaduh and bila ada campur tangan pihak keluarga hampir nak bercerai deorg.sedih sgt..Tapi Alhamdullilah lps 5 tahun allah bagi baby yg sgt comel dkt deorg..Mohammad aidan..comel sgt2..berkat kesabaran..skrg ni tgk deorg happy sgt..hihi

 okay haha cousin2 yg dah kawin selalu pesan kat kami adik2 yg masih kecik2 ni..dah besar2 ni jaga diri elok2..jgn bagi jatuh la apa la..jgn lasak sgt..sebab org perempuan makin besar makin byk sakit dia.haha.mula2 buat x endah pun tapi bila fikir balik,yela takut jugak.nanti susah nak mengandung =_= haha yg lagi merepek2 bila makcik2 semua sibuk nak bagi tips malam pertama dkt bakal2 cousin yg nak kawin..haih la yg masih muda2 ni mula lah nk tergedik2 dgr sekali.konon curious lah..gedik je lebih..lepastu bila dah kena perli tahu pulak malu2 time2 tu lah nak lari...hahaha..xpa dah 20 an dah,infact ade je kwn2 sebaya yg dah kawin (back up diri sendiri) im just sharing dgn kwn2 yg bakal berkahwin and dah berkahwin..hihi what my makcik said kalau nak bakal zuriat yg baik bacalah doa ni..lagi elok kalau lepas majlis buat solat sunat sama2 dulu.and suami kena baca doa.hihi rilex2 jgn gelojoh sgt.. =_='

 'Dengan nama Allah yg maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang.Wahai Tuhanku!jauhilah kami dari syaitan dan jauhkan syaitan dari apa yg engkau kurniakan kepada kami'

 doa ni penting tau supaya benih yg terpilih tu jenis yg terbaik.Bila keluar anak jdilah handsome,cantik and perangai pun baik2.dilindungi Allah dari ganguan syaitan..InsyAllah.. kalau dah dapat zuriat tu bersyukur lah sama ada lelaki ke prempuan.setengah pasangan tu bila mengharap sgt nak dapat anak jantina tertentu,bila xdpt selalu kecewa and selalu menyalahkan pihak perempuan T_T

sebenrnya yg menentukn jantina lelaki atau perempuan adalah sperma lelaki.ini hukum biologi yg kite semua pernah belajar,sebab sperma lelaki lah yg membawa faktor Y atau X. dalam Al quran sendiri pernah menyebut tentang faktor yg menentukn jantina lelaki dan perempuan Ia ditentukn sewaktu benih (sperma) dipancarkn..

 'dan dialah yang menciptakan pasangan-pasangan lelaki dan perempuan (jantan dan betina) daripada nutfah (benih) sewaktu ianya dipancarkn.' (surah an-Najmm 53:45-46) 

 haha,ada benda menarik nk di kongsi kat sini,since we are talking about baby i would want to share with you about something which i heard from a friend of mine..there are some parents who sponsored honeymoon ticket from their children..kenapa? haha because they wanted to get their cucu as soon as possible..and tempat honeymoon yg dipilih tu tempat peranginan tmpt sejuk..since it is cold,both spouses will stay in their room more than spending their time visiting the places around..and the funnier thing is they (the parents) even provide their children (woman) or their daughter in law with few night gowns just for the honeymoon purpose which they will put it together in their bag without them knowing haha..and one of the most popular place they will really suggest or sponsored for the honeymoon is Banjaran Alps di Mont Blanc,switzerland.because its really cold there :3 tapi kn seronoknyaa pergi tmpt2 menarik..estonia,tahiti or any other famous places =_=' hahaha..the elders will do anything,whichever most effective just to fufil their own interest and also for the happiness of their children..

 There are some people who learnt something from other races too.The French used to say, no matter how close we are with our husband always and always spare something as a secret..Lumrah lelaki suka megejar dan sukakan cabaran.. when you are living together after married,dont always wear nothing infront of him.Kalau selalu tunjuk semua he wil get immune =_=' but when u hide some part and show some part it will invite him to figure out more..huhu it is like creating some spark in his subconcious mind.. have you ever heard about the word french flatter?it is how the french woman tackle their husband..but if u live in England with the Brits,it is called boorish tips..haha..so its lucky if u you study in overseas and mix around with any people of different races..there is something u can learn as long as it is within the syariah.. (^_^)V

 most man said, if u wanted to adpot a behaviour like a wife,be like a french wife in bedroom,like the japanese woman treat her husband at home,and practise what real malay woman do outside the house..but never follow the american woman..eventho they are friendly but they are agressive,rude and social..The brits woman is quite shy and polite..but i still think what malay women does is even better..we are malay.we are gracefull and we are polite..be like the real malay woman.. :) okay enough with all these tips..im telling u this because it is something quite interesting and has to be shared with my other female friends and my cousins ofcourse..

 herm harini valentine day..mesti ramai gadis2 kat luar sana terkorban jadi mangsa lelaki2 yg tak bertanggungjawab..sedihnya,sexual intercourse is haram if you and your couple is not married,but if a married couple do it,God count it as an ibadah.You got merit from doing that action with your wife.Sex is not bad in God's eyes,it is not taboo,but it is bad when you do it with wrong people.someone who is not your wife..i have few friends yg buat mistake ni..kdg2 sedih tgk.belajar pandai2 tapi sanggup mensia2 kan maruah diri mcmtu..kalau betul lelaki tu syg ajak lah kawin..marry her..

 perempuan jagalah kehormatanmu hanya buat suamimu..jika kau hilang kehormatamu.tiada lagi yg berharga pada dirimu..ya kita semua masih muda ada nafsu..but Allah has already give a prescription on how to protect ourselves,the thkir (zikir) the remembrance of Allah this will provide a layer of protection to our heart..Pray to Allah that he will guide you true his beautiful religion and allow u to submit faithful to him..mungkin dulu kita lain tapi from time to time perlu lah ada perubahan..perlulah semakin matang..InsyAllah.. baca lah doa ni sebelum keluar rumah

 "Ya Allah,sekiranya engkau mengetahui bahawa aku beriman denganmu dan rasulmu,dan aku memelihara kehormatanku hanya untuk suamiku maka janganlah biarkan aku menjadi mangsa orang kafir dan org yg zalim"

random

okay i miss my home..i miss my small room, i miss my bed..rinduu bau pandan..hehe.penat kutip pandan byk2 letak dlm bilik..bau yg sgt segar and semula jadi..serious..where do i get this idea? waktu kak wani kawin dulu..bilik pengantin bau pandan..wangi sangat2.sebab dia dah sebati dlm air cond sejuk..berhari2 bau bilik pengantin tu wangi..tak hilang2..rasa mcm nak tidur je dlm bilik tu..hehe..so balik baru2 ni i tried to put few pandan leaves inside my room..memang best.. T_T rindunyaa..rasa mcm pengantin baru je tapi husband nya tak ada.haha..okay nanti siapa2 yg nak bilik bau segar and wangi letak lah pandan..mesti suka..rasa nk tidurr je..kalau yg dah berkahwin tu mesti husband korang sukaa...penat2 balik kerja tapi masuk bilik rasa mcm woww what a relief!...nak rehat sepuas-puasnya..hehe okay,xpa im going back this friday..habis tertinggal shampoo and face cleanser kat rumah..nasib baik 5 hari je lagi nak duduk sini..kesian rambut kena pakai shampoo lain..huhu.okay my hair is growing too fast..dah cecah pinggang =_= i think i have to cut it short tapi sayang pulak..each time pergi cuci muka pagi2 selalu renung cermin lama2 and ckp dlm hati..wahh dah besar dah aku..rambut dah panjang.dulu kecik2 rambut pendek je.hehe..dgn rambut panjang ni rasa lah mcm perempuan sikit..rasa mcm ayu pun ada.hahaha.okay masuk bakul angkt sendiri.. (^_^)v tapi honestly ,memang pun my long hair makes me look so perempuan.. okay bye

Things that i want to do with my future spouse ;P

What should i write for this post?hehe..actually saya sgt bosan..well next class will be at 4 15.nak keluar jalan2 pon mcm tak patut plus transport pon xada.haha..but its okay i should stay at my campus more since it is already my final year..pejam celik pejam celik im gonna finish my diploma really soon and akan tinggalkan campus..hehe xdela soon sgt tapi insyAllah october tahun ni.then i will proceed my degree somewhere else since our faculty is going to move to other uitm campuses..so sad..i really like it here,walaupun xsuka environment dia yg bosan but its really near with my house and utp is just next to us..ada jugak la jiran universiti and mestilah developer nak bagunkn tempat ni lg.sobs sobs.. okay..i want to talk about my dreams since my previous entries sgt lah sedih..huhu..kesian blog..berhujan air mata selalu..hihi...okay lately saya rasa mcm in love sgt with CAMBODIA..i dont know why maybe sebab buku novel I LOVE YOU STUPID kot..walaupun kemboja negara yg x berapa megah sgt tapi Cambodia still has few interesting places to go..and ofcourse im gonna be there someday with my beloved people!huhu..tapi siapa? (=_=)' haha leave it here..saya sendiri pon xtahu..it will be answered in few more years..jengjengjeng..but ofcourse lah kita semua ada impian nak end up marrying someone that we love and go on a vacation together..i mean vacationssss..hehe.. okay this is a photo of my sister and her husband

dont they look sweet together?this photo was taken when they were on their way back to semenanjung..biasalah org duduk jauh2 ni..hihi..seronoknya...kalau dapat pergi somewhere with our beloved ones!huhu..hello future spouse!Lets wear shades together..and take as many photos as possible.mesti comel kan.. take me to any places that you like as long as i am with you i am always in the right place.. ecewah,mcm lagu pulak.. Take me to your heart take me to your soul Give me your hand before I'm old Show me what love is - haven't got a clue Show me that wonders can be true take me to your heart by michael learns to rock..hehe iklan sebentar.. (^_^)V okay sy nak start cerita tentang cambodia..okay there is one place yg sy teringin nak pergi ,the place is pantai otres..pantai yang paling tercantik dkt cambodia yg terletak di selatan..yieyyyyyyy okay apa yg special yg pasal pantai ni?haha sebenarnya tak kisah pun pantai apa,asalkan pantai atau pulau,then for me it shall be okay..saya sukaaaa pantai.suka pasir2 putih suka karang2 laut suka bila matahari terbenam tapi xsuka bila sunburn..hehe..org kata pantai belah2 sabah pon cantik...nanti boleh lah pergi melawat kak wawa kite then pergi berkelah2 dkt pantai sana..hahaha

.. okay sekarang ni sy tengah berangan ada dekat pantai otres.. bau air masin,deru angin kencang,bunyi ombak dan pemandangan yang sgt memukau.. seronoknya,nanti boleh ajak husband main dekat gigi air..and cuba tangkap buih2 seperti sabun yg terhasil dari hempasan ombak ke tepi pantai..lepas tu boleh main kejar2 and tolak2 dan kabooommmm dushhh masuk dlm air..mestilah yg terjatuh tu husband..hihihi..kesianya dia..rambut dah basah and jatuh ke bawah habis semua gel2 rambut..haha..okay main2 je..xsampai hati nak tolak husband sendiri..kalau nak tolak jugak biarlah tolak sama2. biar dua2 jatuh then lepastu boleh lah mandi dan berangan konon2nya kamilah pasangan duyung yang tercantik dan terhandsome di seantero cambodia..hahaha

okay kita cerita tentang tempat menginap di pantai otres..dekat kawasan tepi pantai otress ada beberapa buah khemah besar yang berwarna coklat cair dijadikan tempat penginapan. bukan resort ye..dari luar nampak buruk tapi bila dah bukak zip khemah ..taraaaaa kita akn terpegun bila tgk susun atur dalam khemah..berkarpet penuh warna merah dan katil bersaiz king putih..ehh sukanyaaa..haha saya suka warna putih..kalau boleh nak cadar warna putih,curtain warna putih and boleh taburkan kelopak mawar merah ats katil..okayy..serious best..nanti bilik tidur nak buat mcmtu..tapi tapi..putih kan cepat kotor..huhuhu.. okay sambung balik mengenai kawasan dalam khemah..ada katil putih yg empuk dan gebu yang ditabur kelopak mawar berbentuk hati..dan aroma wangian ros akan memenuhi setiap ruang..haha ofcourse lah ni set bulan madu..hahaha.. okay bilik air dia pula kat luar bersebelahan dengan khemah tapi saiz dia agak kecik dari khemah tadi.jazkuzi dan bath tub dalam khemah tu berlantaikan marmar bewarna hijau pekat dan mempunyai suluhan lampu yg sgt cantik dan romantik,dengan cermin2 besar,singki and tabletop..walaupun tak de sliding door kaca tapi ada bidai kayu yang berukir cantik kayu jati motif bunga kemboja(bunga negara cambodia tu sendiri) yang menutup ruang jakuzi,bath tub dan tandas. seronok kan..kat luar mcm khemah usang tapi dalam dia mcm 5 stars...hehe..dia berkonsep moden dan kombinasi tropika.bau wangi bunga ros and kelopak dia ditabur disekitar bilik air dalam bath tub dan juga jakuzi.. lagi best kalau ada tempat berspa...pamper diri sendiri..normally tempat berspa akan ada mcm2 haruman..an we can choose our massage oil..bestnya..massage and we fell asleep..dah la ada slow backgorund music..so relaxing..tapiii...mana boleh,kalau saya boleh la,i wont allowed my husband pergi massage.NO WAYY.haha.memang tak lah..i can do it for him..infact i love doing massage to the people i love..dulu cousin kite suka suruh massage dia =_= and dlu i owned many types of massage oil..even dekat sekolah pon kwn2 selalu ckp nak pergi spa aie,which is my dorm =_= haha.merepek kan..so i can do it for him.no other woman can touch my ma,if there is,memang kena watchaaaaa!! hahaha

okay habis dah cerita pasal tempat penginapan..malam2 boleh lah anda jalan2 dgn husband..menghirup udara segar tepi pantai..kalau datang ramai2 boleh ber bbq..buat daging bakar ke ikar bakar ke.apa2 lah..okay lepastu boleh suruh husband tolong cubitkan isi ikan..malas nak amik sendiri..time ni lah boleh mengada-ngada,buli2 sikit..ehh awak nak tuu...nak nii..yg tuu,yg ni..haha.okay tipu je..im not that fussy :)tapi kalau ber bbq lagi ramai lagi best kann..tapi,xromantik lahh..haha..okay pergi jalan2 dgn husband dulu nanti sekali sekala baru jalan2 ramai2..hihihi.. seronoknya jalan2 tepi pantai..sambil lipat kaki seluar separas lutut.main2 dengan pasir pantai.okay tipu..mcm lah husband nak bagi lipat kaki seluar kat tengah2 orang.haha..lepastu nanti boleh naik jet ski...yehuuuuuuuu..mestilah membonceng =_='harapan lah dia nak bagi kita yg bawak..tapi tak pa saya akan bonceng belakang dan kami akn membelah ombak laut sama2.ketawa sama2.jerit sama2 serentak dengan lambungan ombak dan jet ski sambil2 tu boleh la tgkmatahari terbenam.matahari yang cuba menyembunyikan dirinya.bertukar warna.kejap2 kekuningan kejap2 merah jingga.merah pekat dan akhirnya kelabu..wuwuw... T_T bestnyaaa tengok matahari terbenam dgn org yang paling disayangi....berangan je boleh sekarang.haha..

tak sangka kan kemboja ada laut yang begitu cantik.kalau dibangunkan betul2 mesti phuket pon kalah.Sihanoukville mempunyai tujuh buah pantai peranginan yg mempesonakan.Pantai occheuteal,Serendipity,Victory,Hawaii,Indeoendence sokha dan panati otres..pantai yg sgt cantik halus memutih..takpe kn sekali sekali kita pergi jalan jauh2..kita kerja keras..betul2,once in a while kita pamper kn diri kita pergi vacation :) tempat2 peranginan di dalam malaysia pun apa kurangnya...banyak tempat menarik yg kita boleh pergi..cuma kali ini saja je nk cerita tentang kemboja/cambodia..im so in love with it ever since baca buku ilus and my father pon baru balik dri kemboja awal bulan satu..mcm seronok je..huhu..my precious,sudi kah awak go on a vacation with me? :) i'l wait for the answer..whoever u might be..i always hope u and me are going to create many memorable memories together..

Happy new year everyone :)

okay,i dont have much thing to talk about..im just gonna wish everyone and myself a happy new year ..2012 has been so great walaupun ada kisah2 sedih along the year..but its okay,im grateful enough as im still alive and keep progressing..Alhamdullilah.Thank you Allah for everything u have given to me.i love u so much Ya Allah.. i havent had the chance to wish everyone a happy new year on facebook and twitter because im still sad with what had happened to me during the late months of 2012.its really sad to open my twitter and and facebook again.i find it very hard to go through my grieving phase,so what im trying to do now is,to lower my gaze and avoid talking unnecesarilly...but its gonna be temporary i guess. its true,i still miss him,but its okay..we all know its really hard to just simply forget someone who is so dear to our heart..so im not trying at all..im just keep progressing with all that i have and leave everything to Allah..Everytime i feel weakened i will just remind myself of Allah's love..be patience because i know Allah has decided for me the best and i'll pray harder for peace in my heart..InsyAllah..if Hassanei is better off without me,then he shall be okay..i really love this person,so i just want the best for him,just wanna let him go and be happy,even it is not with me.i cant never stop loving him so i can just place that love in stored away place in my heart,where i dont allow it to control me anymore.then i'l find peace in this way..i hope Allah grant me strength to do this..He is the only one that can give me the courage.. Im also very thankful to Allah for his blessing..Allah sent me amazing people when im going trough hard times.One of the beautiful things in life is having a great friends..Izyan and chubby they have been so good to me and im really touched.i dont know how to tell my feeling,but Im really thankful to have a constant support from them.we have gotten closer each day..thank you very much for always being here with me.2012 has been a very challenging year,but Alhamdullilah i passed it and currently moving to this brand new year 2013..i would like to thank hassanei too,because in 2012 and few years back he had also been a very good companian for me..Although we cant be together again,im still grateful for the great times we've shared together.Though i lost some people along the way,im still grateful to have a people that stepped in and out of my life,they made my life so complete and i gain so much experiences from them..Thank you Allah,thank you for everything.. lastly i would to tell this to my friends, if u have found the perfect and wonderful guy in your life,All i would wish is u can make it a real relationship.an amazing one..take care of your relationship,be good to each other,be faithful and tolerate with each other and follow the islamic way.InsyAllah when u do everything in Islamic way everything will be fine..we may forget sometimes,but always remind each other about it..InsyAllah,u have been together,do not break the relationship and pray that it will be till marriage life..keep it halal.Allah will bless u with the happiest relationship :) long way to go...but remmember,if that person motivated u towards being a good muslim,then InsyAllah that person is your spouse and is the best for you..we made mistakes,big or small,Allah will alwys forgive us.He is merciful. for my friends with broken heart,dont worry,if u are fated to be with him,one day he will be yours.and when u have them bck,then take care of your relationship well.Allah wont make it easy for you,you will be tested untill u love him above all others..or maybe he has better planned for u..its easy said than done right?i know its hard but keep convincing yourself,many people is in the same boat as yours but they keep progressing and rising..InsyAllah..look back in the mirror and remind yourself of the awesome woman,full of love.....appreciate yourself and pray harder... 2012 images :)

bestnya kalau ada org maksudkn lagu ni utk kite kn :)

Let me introduce you,here is my lovely and extremely beautiful sister, kak wa..hehe (my boyfriend's sister actually)^_^

i can feel the love between the both of you..A pure love,everybody will be fascinated with your love..and they can see it from the photo ;)


so this is my sister...although she is not my biological sister,but u can call it a special relationship..because my kak wa cares about me and i care about her too <3 and i will love my Kak Wa forever,jika diizinkan Allah :)

let me tell u something about my sister KAK WA..xbanyak pon yg diketahui (HEHEHE) .but here ada serba sedikit tentang kak wa..
herm herm..She likes many things
She is a nurse to be...she loves children..she loves to take photos (very much like me) haha..and paling penting dia pandai pakai tudung berbelit2..hihi..she cooks..She is married ;) of late she likes very much 'megejek orang,mengusik org dan mengenakan org' hahaha.. and the best thing about her,she is in love with her beloved abang sezali...woahhhhhhhhh ;D

entry kali nie,sbb nak ucapkan tahniah banyak2 dekat seorg kakak yg tengah berbahagia and angau nie..i havent make it properly sebelum ni..so this entry is specially made for my sister kak wa yg cantik tapi nak kena cubit nie..

well well  i still regret for not being able to attend the wedding..
ehem2..kak waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..hahah tahniahhh tahniah dan tahniahh kerana sudah menjunjung titah perintah Allah dan melaksanakan sunnah Nabi Muhammad SAW :)

Perkahwinan bukan sesuatu yang mengaibkan,merendahkan wanita,mengongkong mereka tetapi ia mengangkat darjat seorang wanita ke tahap yang lebih mulia dan terpelihara..Segala sesuatu itu lebih indah jika kita mendapatkanya dengan cara yang halal :)

cinta tu dtg tanpa diundang kan kak wa,perginya tanpa dihalau.cinta itu pelik dan penuh misteri.Sejuta orang,sejuta pelbagai rasa cinta..cinta yang suci itu ada..hanya yang bertuah saja dapat meilikinya..Tiada persoalan tiada jawapan..Ia dari Allah.Hanya mereka yang ikhlas sahaja dapat memilikinya..and i hope kak wa dah jumpa cinta suci kak wa...InsyAllah :D

(hope u dont mine me being too jiwang here..haha..kesan membaca yg terlampau byk ^_^)

nahhh..this is for kak wa..aie nk share dgn kak wa pesanan seorg ibu kepada anak perempuan yg baru kahwin..huk huk huk..:') haha over je aie.

'anakku,mulai saat ini,anak akan berada di sisinya..Berkongsi suka dan duka.Berkongsi hati dan perasaan.Anakku,hatinya jgn dibakar dengan jelingan mata..hatinya jangan dihiris dengan lidah.Hatinya jangan diiat dengan tingkah.Anakku,hidungnya sentiasa wangi dengan bau tubuhmu.Matanya semtiasa sejuk dengan wajahmu.Telinganya sentiasa diulit dengan kemerduan suaramu..Bibirnya sentiasa tersenyum mesra bila bersamamu.Hatinya sentiasa berbunga indah kerana cintamu.Anakku,jangan biarkn perutnya kosong.Jangan biarkan tekaknya haus.Jangan pernah mulutnya meminta.Jangan pernah tanganya menadah.Anakku,tidur selepas dia tidur.Bangun sebelum dia sedar.Langkah dengan penuh izinya..InsyAllah,selagi Allah dan rasul di hati,kemanisan dalam rumah tangga berkekalan :') '

A woman came to ask the Prophet (peace be upon him) about some matter, and when he had dealt with it, he asked her, "Do you have a husband?" She said, "Yes." He asked her, "How are you with him?" She said, "I never fall short in my duties, except for that which is beyond me." He said, "Pay attention to how you treat him, for he is your Paradise and your Hell." (Ahmad, al-Nisa'i Al-Targhib wa'l-Tarhib, 3/52)


The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said:

"Any woman who dies, and her husband is pleased with her, will enter Paradise."

<3 <3 <3

Now this article is "81 ways to win ur husband's love"

 (warning : kalau x larat baca jgn baca..hahaha)

1-Listen actively. When your husband expresses an opinion or a thought, pay attention. This shows you respect him and his views and nothing pleases a man more.
2-Dress pleasantly/attractively. Mostly women dress properly when going outside and at home they wear worst clothes..U should dress urself so that ur husband will feel good when he looks at u...
3-Smell good. 
4-Say thank you with a smile. When your husband does an odd job around the house, thank him like you really mean it. He will know that his help is not taken for granted and he will be happy to do more.
5-Race to the door when he comes home, as if you were waiting for him. Smile and hug.
6-Prepare his favorite meal. After he returns home from work on an ordinary day, surprise your husband with his favorite dinner. He will not only be glad to have the food he likes best, but will appreciate the time and effort you put in preparing it.
7-Don’t lay out all your problems on your husband as soon as he walks in. Give him a little mental break
8-Don’t keep asking him, “what are you thinking?”… because unlike women, men’s thoughts are as random as the results of a google search. :)
9-Give your husband a nice massage, after a particularly exhausting day at work.
10- Be kind to your mother-in-law the same way you would like your husband to be kind to your own mother.Treat his sibblings as ur sibblings and his father as ur father and u would see then how much he will respect u
11-Learn all the rights and obligations of each other in Islam.
12-Keep your house clean, at least to the level that he wants it.
13-Compliment him on the things you know he’s not so confident about (looks, intelligence) etc. This will build his self-esteem.
14-Tell him he’s the best husband ever.
15-Call his relatives for a lunch or dinner at your home.
16-Give him a simple task to do at home and then thank him when he does it. This will encourage him to do more.
17-When he’s talking about something boring, listen and nod your head. Even ask questions to make it seem like you’re interested.
18Stop nagging non-stop before Allah ta’ala gives you something really to complaint about.
19-Help him to find and build her inner strengths and skills.
20-Encourage him to do good deeds.
21-Share islamic knowledge with each other.Try to watch islamic channels together so that u both can learn.
22- If he’s in a bad mood, give him some space. He’ll get over it, inshaAllah.
23-Thank him sincerely for providing you with everything.
24- If he’s angry with you and starts yelling, let him yell it out while you’re quiet. You will see your fight will end a lot faster. Then when he’s calm, you can tell him your side of the story and how you want him to change something. 
25-When you’re mad at him, don’t say “YOU make me furious”, rather, “This action makes me upset”. Direct your anger to the action and circumstance rather than at him.
26-Remember that your husband has feelings, so take them into consideration.
27-Let him chill with his friends without guilt, especially if they’re good guys. Encourage him to go out, so he doesn’t feel “cooped up” at home.
28-If your husband is annoyed over a little thing you do (and you can control it), then stop doing it. Really.
29-Learn how to tell him what you expect without him having to guess all the time. Learn to communicate your feelings.
30-Don’t get mad over small things. It’s not worth it.
31-Make jokes. If you’re not naturally funny, go on the internet and read some jokes, and then tell them to him.
32-Tell him you’re the best wife ever and compliment yourself on certain things you know you’re good at.
33-Learn to make his favorite dish.
34-Don’t ever, EVER talk bad about him with ur friends or family unnecessarily.
35-Use your time wisely and get things accomplished. If you’re a housewife, take online classes and get active in your community. This will make you happy and a secondary bonus is that it impresses your husband.
36-Husband and wife should discuss and communicate with wisdom with each other to convey what they like and dislike of each other to do or not to do. NOT give command or instruction like servant.Because Allah says in quan “They are garment to each other”
37-Tell your husband you love him many many times.
38- Make sure all his clothes are clean and pressed so he is always looking fresh and crisps.
39- Ask Allah to strengthen and preserve the bonds of compassion and love between the two of you, every day, every prayer. Ask him to protect that bond from Shaytaan. When a lesser devil destroys the love between spouses, he is the most beloved of Shaytaan.
40-The way to a man’s heart is through his stomach.Try to make his favorite food 
41-Always let him know that you appreciate him working.It makes it easier for him to go to work.
42-Surprise him with gifts. Even necessities can be gifts.
43-Listen to him. (Even when he talks about extreeemely geeky things like Queries,Tables and other boring things.)
44-Try (hard as it might be) to take interest in his hobbies.
45-Take care of your skin, esp. facial. Face is center of attraction.
46- Learn tricks and “techniques” to please your husband in intimacy. Of course goes both ways.
47-When you are sitting together, quietly slip your hand into his. Your husband will love the easy expression of intimacy between you two.
48- If you are not satisfied intimatly, talk to him and tell him. Help him or provide resources, don’t wait till matters become worse.
49-Prepare for special evenings with him with special dinner and exclusive time 
50-Don’t discuss important/controversial matters with him when he is tired or sleepy. Find right time for right discussion.
51-Learn to compromise
52-Respect his rights
53-You have to know about the financial conditions of your husband so that you do not demand a thing that is too hard for him to buy.Because if wife demands a very expensive thing which husband couldnt buy then he becomes mentally tensed and sometimes he does not tell her wife about that.
54-Ups and Downs are a part of time.You have to keep your behaviour with your husband same in both times.Else he will be broken.If any calamity strikes him make him sure that you are with him and will be always
55-Share your happiness and sadness with him.
56-Accept him as is, he is a package deal.
57-Send your husband a text message out of the blue with a message of love.
58-Send him an email without a reason.
59-Ask him to buy gifts to his parents and siblings.
60-Write love notes or poems and place them in the book he's been reading.
61-Teach your children to respect and honor their father.
62-Yes for flattery. No for arguing.
63-Call your husband with the best names, cute nicknames, and names he loves to hear.
64-A pleasant surprise.
65- Preserve and guard the tongue.
66-Expect, accept, and overlook his shortcomings.
67-Expect and respect her jealously.
68-Put food in your husband's mouth.
69-Leave the past for Allah, don't dwell on, dig into, or bring it up.
70-Don't ignore the small things, deal with them before they be come big.
71-Avoid being harsh-hearted.
72-Respect and show that you appreciate his thinking.
73-Respect and understand her when he might not be in mood for intimacy.
74-Maintain the secrecy and privacy of the home.
75-Remember you are not always right or perfect yourself.
76-Have a good intention for him.
77-Designate a nice, clean, spacious area in your home for the two of you to pray at night whenever you can.
78-Let him have the TV remote. Granted, that you wish your husband spent more time with you, than watching the sports channel/NEWS, but it will make him happy.
79-Find a quiet moment with your husband to whisper “ I love you” in his ears. If you have already said it, say it again. You can never say these three words too often and you can be sure, that every time it will make your husband glad, he married you.
80--Hold his gaze. When you are speaking to your husband or listening to him, make sure that you keep eye contact. This will assure him of your attention and your respect, which is empowering to any man.
81-Take care of his money and properties.

okay kak wa...thats all for this entry...i wish u all the happiness kak wa..Semoga rumah tangga kak wa disentiasa diberkati..and cepat2 dapat baby..hihihi..xsabar nak main dengan baby kak wa...yeayyyy...

hihi..kak wa perkenalkan ini adik2 comel yang dah amik tempat di hati aie..

Baby dayyan and si comel qistina

omg..cutenyaaaaa..hahahaha..so kak wa..cepat2 lah dapat baby yg comey2 mcmni...ngeee..byebyebye..<3

OLD SONG

wise man say,only fools rush in

but i cant help falling in love with you

Shall I stay

Would it be a sin

If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea

Darling so it goes

Some things are meant to be

Take my hand, take my whole life too

For I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea

Darling so it goes

Some things are meant to be

Take my hand, take my whole life too

For I can't help falling in love with you

For I can't help falling in love with you

kalau lah dunia nie seindah novel..

     one day aku nk ajak husband aku jalan2...ala xjauh pon around malaysia je..klu nk holiday lama2 tu kat overseas boleh la..nie kejap2 je...lagipun kita tak perlu menzahirkan bahagia dengan benda mewah...contoh nak happy2 dgn husbnd x semestinya dia kena bawak g overseas ke.. 
.aku nk ajak dia pergi..
CAMERON HIGHLAND..haha...dah mcm xde tmpt lain pulak..tak pun FRASER HILL...

nanti kat cameron..
time otw naik ke ats..kt lereng2 bukit tu nati ade la kt batu2 kanan jalan ke kiri entah lama xpergi..akn ade pancuran air bukit..hehe..aku nk ajak husbnd aku trun..nk merasa air bukit dgn tgn..sejuk ouhh...pastu basuh muka...boleh main percik2 air ke..air bukit bersih xpe..n sejuk sgt2..

lps dah sampai kena la check in dulu kan..hehe ;) 'senyum nakal' ehh jgn fikir bukan2 nk check in je...
aku xnk tdur hotel yg mahal2 sgt..lagipun hotel tu mcm membosankn...sama ja..modern style,,aku suka english style...aku suka yg ala2..cottage ke..rumah dlm farm ke..cewah cewahh..pndek kata aku suka western classic...hehe..so aku akn tdur di BALA's HOUSE..pernah dgr x?hehe meh aku bgitao apa dia menatang nie...dear future husband..nanti saya nk pergi situ tao tao..hehe..sambil buat muka comel  ^_^ supaya dpt pergi..walaupun xcomel..ehhe

nie la BALA's HOUSE..diri bercirikan english..aku suka tmpt nie.dlu time kecik ibu pernah bawa aku g sini..ibu kn jiwa dia ada english2 sikit..aku dgn ibu asyik sama je..emua aku ikut ibu aku..lagu la apa la..

 haha..nie antara gmbr2 dia lah..nk byk2 cri seniri..google je..xlarat nk buat..haha..tapi x secantik realti lah..kena pergi tgk seniri jugak..gmbr bilik tu ikut jenis bilik ape yg kita nk..gmbr dining hall semua mls lah..

yang penting..kat sini byk taman..aku nk mbil gmbr byk2 dgn husbnd aku..hehe...n nikmati pmndgn sama2..ptg2 boleh pusing..


okay hbis cerita tentang bala's house...

lepas tu aku nk ajak dia pergi strawberry farm..aku nk pick buah2 strawberry seniri...ade one place yg ibu bwk aku kecik2 dlu...boleh pick seniri..and kat situ kat entrance dye buat iceblended strwberry sekali..mmg dri pure strwberry..sedapp..and jem dia pun dia bgi org rasa dgn biskut..memang best..strwberry farm tu owned by org melayu..ats bukit n sebelah rumah dia je..hehe..

pastu nk pergi ladang teh..pusing2 je..dlu time aku pnjt gunung brinchang..time nk trun kena lalu lorong2 bukit ldg tea..13 km mcmtu..penat wehh..tpi enjoy la..pmndgn cntik..semua hijau...byk private house yg lawa2 kt ats tu..nanti nk pekena secawan teh dgn husband..bawak pashima n balut dia..bgi tak sejuk..ehhe...and talk about anything :)

lps tu aku nk pergi pasar dkt tanah rata kot..nk shopping sayur sayuran...nk beli mcm2 sayur..sbb nanti esoknya bila husbnd aku bgun tdur..im gonna make him sup sayur..ade  byk2 cendawan..sbnrnye nie semua aku dgn family aku buat satu ketika dulu..tpi kami sewa apartment time tu..boleh memasak kat cameron..dlu kitaorg selalu pg cameron...hermm :( pagi2 tu masak sup sayur..sejuk2 tu dah beku smpi cream safi aku pon keras je..hahaha..nk cerita sejuk beku punya psl..sejuk2 tu bgun2 boleh mkn sup sayur pns wehh..sumpah best..dah la mcm2 jenis syur..time tu family mkcho n uncle khalid ade sekali..bestnya..tapi skrg family aku dah hncur brkecai..yg tinggal kenagan je..so biar aku play kn kengan nie dgn husbnd aku...aku nk masakkn dia..sup sayur..bgi dia sihat segar pagi2..

lps tu kdg2 ade org jual bunga2 kering kat pasar sayur..beli sikit la..cntik kot bunga2 kering tu..sbb dicolourkn..

destinasi trakhir nk pergi ladang bunga

aku nk beli bunga fevret

BABY BREATH
husbnd ouh husbnd..aie suka bunga tu ye..sila amik tahu ! :P
haha
kat rumah kat balkoni..nk gntung bunga tu..biar dia membesar  and berjuntai..lawa sehhh...pastu bubuh buaian gantung kat balkoni..cntiknya..baby breath i loveee you with all my heart! heee
and nk beli roses byk2 boleh?gila over..nk beli bunga byk2..utk opah ibu n mak mentua sekali..hehe
nk satu bonet..okay tipuu je..sikit2 sudah la..semak umah aku japgi..opah suka bunga2 nie..opah byk tnm bunga kat rumah dia..huhu..rindu pulak kat opah :)

mcm2 sebenarnye nk buat dgn husbnd..tapi biarlah nati2..xchill la ckp siap2..lagi satu aku nk pergi fraser hil nk tunggang kuda dgn husbnd aku..gedik x gedik x..sbnrnye byk tmpt menarik kat malaysia nie wehh..

n aku nk prgi pntai jugak..nk main ombak dgn dia...main kejar2..main pnjt2..main tolak2..okay enough2..hehe

lpstu aku suka tgk movie english...nanti weekend mlm2 nk tgk movie dgn husbnd dkt rumah.feeling same2 sedih same..happy same2..huarghhhh..T_T haha.cerita hntu aku xsuka..aku tkot..tp aku suka mengedik nk tgk jugak..pastu menyusahkn kwn2 aku..mnjerit..tarik deorg bila takut,,,lompat sane sini..habih..tgk ju on pon dgn family aku duk sblh abh kat penang dlu..huhu..bila ade hntu..aku dgn selubung selimut2 aku peluk abah.perut abh yg buncit tu..yam pon akn buat bnda yg sama..bhahaha..gila bodoh x matured perangai aku dlu..pdahal drjh enam la sengal.so nati kesian husbnd aku..kalau dia nk tgk tgk sorg2..jgn bgi aku tao..nti aku nk tgk..aku buat bising..dia xfokus..haha..japgi aku jerit sane tarik dia..apa la..mesti dia..mcm nie..'urghhhhhh..mcm nk buh penampaq ja 'hahaha..tapi kalau dia tgk bola..boleh blahhh lah nk tgk sama....kenapa la lelaki suka bola...aku xsuka bola..sbb..byk sbb...sbb dulu lps return frm london lps tgk bola punya lama..ade org tu minx clash dgn aku..byk lg sbb...
and sebab itu aku x suka lelaki yg lebih kn bola dri segalanya...tpi still tu minat dia..minat2 pon.fikir2 lah same..klau boleh spent time masa dgn bola..dgn org yg syg mesti lah kene boleh jugak....ermm.apa yg cuba aku smpaikn nie?okay lupaakn...
saje je nk hiburkn diri..aku tgh sedih sbnrnye...jdi kita kena mengarang..okay..sekian sahaje merepek2.. :)