THOSE WHO HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART my sisters my mummy kak wa he who still have a special place in my heart best friend kak wani

Saturday, December 25, 2010

this monday i will be having new life at seri iskndar :'(
 not looking foward for that..i missed puncak alam..
i will miss mira for sure :'( n others too..

seri iskndar....pls be good to me...
YA ALLAH,mudahkn la sgala urusan aku..tunjukan la aku jln yg benar n berkatilah hidup ku dah insan2 yang aku sayang :')

P/S : i love kak mira ,i love ibu...both of u pls take care :')

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

one day i would want to own a horse.. i wish :)
A horse is worth more than riches
i want to go to the beach SERIOUSLY.
.“I am you; you are ME. You are the waves; I am the ocean. Know this and be free, be divine.”
 i love coffee since i was in form helps me to stay awake <3
i dont care bout what car u drive,where do u live,if u knw someone who knw someone who knw someone if your clothes r this years cutting edge,if ur trust fund is unlimited,if u r A-list,B-list or never been in list i only care about the words that flutter from ur mind.they r the only truly thing u own the only thing i will remmber u by.will not fall in love with ur bone n skin,not fall in love with the places u hav been will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from ur extraodinary mind :)

its weird to think back wht happened in the past..i mean how easily i fall for people,or to be exact fall for him..i mean HIM..

personally,im not the type who will easily getting herself involve into stranger's life..either being stranger's friend or being his lover, i wont be making friendship with a guy so simply without intimately knowing them,yah! maybe knowing them from a friend as hes maybe a friend of my friend,or perhaps my schools' friends,my classmates,and  my coussy's n family's friends..

but u?u happened to be there,smiling,giving me the cute face with that so shining eyes, n went away....which is miles away..tett...


we met again on websites....

i wanted to be ur friend in the first place,but then we acted differently I mean U acted differently..(u might say u didnt,but yes u did)
~u sweet-talked me,confessed me bout ur strange feeling,treated me nicely,talk to my bestfriend n asked her random questions about me!n many many more

  and hell yah....ofcourse my bestfriend  told me right after that...n for a girl who her deep inside is just a well of tenderness...i do fall for u..i do feel touched when knowing that,theres a boy who is so keen in getting to knw me..
being convinced by ur bestfriend about ur feeling towrds me i then started liking u .
herm..n i uninttentionaly broke many hearts too ..but that seems alright to me as i havent promise them anything..

being proposed was the best thing ever happened in my life or i should say girls life!yah,in my life,men come n go(even untill now)..and.i also stucked with few of  them a while,but as we all know at this early age of mine we tend to be having that so called puppy love!  :P so i didnt make any serious relationship before .i want to be loved sincerely n i want a comitment..i told myself to fall in love with someone who approach me using appropriate ways,n propose me to be their girl or their special one!..and those guys never did n that has made me felt insecure..but u! :') u did proposed me ,right after getting the hint frm my bestfriend.... :')  thanx you

time passes us by

u love me i love u..u missed me i missed u.. :')
 i tried my best to learn to love u..seriously..

but ppl r made of of imperfections! i have my own imprfctions n u do hav it too..
i was sometimes hurt by ur harsh jokes..but that didnt mind me so much,as i knw that it cud be one of ur imperfections ..i learn to accept them so that when it comes to mine,u'l be doing the same thing... :')

i loved  the moments when the music was on n we sang along..:')

we shared everythings..our preferances,our 'likes',our sorrows and our stories..i didnt mind listen to u n ur craps,i just want u to be happy n i want u to knw that u r being loved by someone..i love sending u love n spiritual quotes.i want u to be always good n spriritful.... :')
 u take the very best of me..
 i never told anyone about myself that much except for u n my bestfriend .
.i try to  be myself when i was with u n i felt comfort as i can do so n i want u to act the same way too..but i never had the chance to know ur real-self....

i admit that i hav one bad habit....which is (i love making face while taking photo n thats my typical me!)anyway my friends didnt have problem with it so far..and why shud they be?right?

but u? :')

i thot i hav told u bout those imperfections thingy! :')

oh~kay ppl...if u want someone to be like what u wanted them to be that means u like the reflection of yourself within them..u do not like the prson self..but u r only liking ur own self...(peoples r different)

pls accept ur partner for who they are :)

sepatutnya kita give and take :') tett
 (i love crying i love oldies n i weird i knw ;') sorry ppl i cant be perfect  )

i would never forget the day u swore that u'd never leave...

u said u want to hav a long relationship with me.. :')

:') im  a normal human,im a girl n i hav heart..pls note..

u blocked me on facebook..thanx you :')
( father taught me to be good to others..he taught me manners..i wont be shouting at ppl easily even if they hav hurt me so much..seriously i wont.and.i do respect ppl decision..)

smpi hati block kan :') i was being nice to u all this while..

after disappearing for few days u came back n made ur claimations..
'dah lama kita tak chat kan?'

:'( (how the hell cud i chat with ya if u hav blocked me kan)

i hate april...
'ok let me be honest then'
me: okay
'i think it was a mistake'
me:what was a mistake?
'our relationship'
tet tet tet...
'please undrstnd me?'
(yes i do undrstnd u...i always did..dri u ckp konon2 nk brpisah smntara wktu lagi..i agreed..tak kisah sikit pon because i just want u to be happy always..but u?hav u ever undrstnd me?hav u ever understnd that i cant lose u :').but im a girl,i do hav pride so if ppl didnt want me, why should i beg for them  :') but im sad n im hurt even untill now,u hav made me fall in love with u n then u walked away frm my life....)
me;okay as u wish... and we ended up with a separation :'(

u added my  fb back,n sent me personal msg  saying ur sorry n  asked me to approve ur friend request...EASY kan..i hav told father taught me to be good to i did approve u..

then u came again ,n acted like there was nothing ever happened before...n paling sedih..when u invited me to join a conference btween u n ur other former friends..again u hav hurt me by saying..wehh aiesya hakim suka u.i dont know whether u were joking or else but. :'( seriously would u mind to atleast concern about my feeling?we just broke up few days before n how could u said such thing to me..:'( even untill now if i ever being closed with one of ur friend,u will say this 'ouh dia tu handsome,pergi la jumpa dia' it seemed like u tried hard to match me with other is like im deseperately wanting u back n u hav to piss me off quickly by searching me a new guy which for u could replace ur place..:'( heyy,im friendly..seriously i hav lots of friend including those male friends who tried hard approaching me!if im needing a boy,i would just hav to  choose any of them..tak payah susah2 nk kenen kan :'( how could u...u treated me like im a piece of u know that?its okay..u hav onced make me i'l try to forget everything..n u r nice actually..IMPERFECTIONS..biase lah :')

but theres one thing i want u to knw.....telling a girl to be friends with their old lover is like asking them to keep their dead dog forever  :')....thanx you.. :')
..............................................................................................................................tettt............the end
     *when a guy said that hes not readly to be in relationship,they r lying,it just that he is not ready to be in relationship with that particular girl :'( *
 untill now,my  tears r still dropping when thinking about this....n i dont know when is it going to stop.. its about time for me to forget someone whom i onced love so a sincere lover..if i loved ppl i loved them sincerely so it takes time for me to forget them.......and im not mad at him..its my fate...i hope that he will learn his mistakes n i will learn mine too.Ya Allah if he wasn't made for me,please help me to easily forget him.n please bless him ya Allah as he has made me happy before....amin   :')

p/s:cerita di ats tiada kene mngena dgn yg hdup atau yg tlh meninggal dunia.hanyalah rekaan semata2 :)  n im sorry if my grammars are still learning to improve :)
herm herm..I love all that is, what I call, “grandma style”: cardigans, pastels, floral patterns, crown molding, vintage jewelry, natural materials, broaches, warm blankets and fuzzy slippers

today... im giving up... :')

I tend to look at myself in the mirror... a lot... and for extended periods of time. It takes a lot of will power not to look at my reflection when I pass a window.

Thursday, December 16, 2010


minus lines 6 n 7...n others....erkkk...ITS NORMAL....right ppl?but i didnt do any of them :P


Your little girl has grown up daddy. 

She lies to you about not having a boyfriend(not yet for now :P), her clothes no longer hang below her knees. She wears makeup , she knows how to doll herself up , and she has an interest for men. 

However, Daddy, the only man she will forever love the most is you. She may have a million men who steal and break her heart, but you are the only one who can give your blessings and allow the right gentlemen to take your place as the new protector of the heart.

I love you Daddy, 
signed your daughter.
mood:missing abah.. :')
Dear You,
I don’t know why I’m writing this to you right now but I just want to say that you’ll always be in my heart. You’re a part of my life. I’m not sure if I’m going to send this to you because I know you wouldn’t care but thank you. Thank you for the memories even though they weren’t great. But I know in that point of my life, I was happy.


"When someone is so sweet to you, don't expect that they will be like that all the time because even the damn sweetest chocolate expires too."

~taken frm amira muin's


my skype best friend

              mira edora dear
                 rindu :')

              si kanak2

               fie fie



     ..syed..thax for all the songs..

elmie,aisya,nana,n haziq as well..tettt....

Wednesday, December 15, 2010



You walked in to my life,
But just like that,
You walked back out,
Still you will be a memory,
A memory that I have created in my mind,
Still you will be a memory,
A memory that will always be locked,
Away in my heart and my mind,
I will always have a memory of you in my heart,
And I will always carry that picture of you in my mind,
Still you will be a memory, 


my private territory..

                             p/s:dont mind my friend..she was too excited when
                                                              knowing that her photo's being taken

                               AND AFTER

~absence of a pic

imissyou ;')

Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end, and somewhere in the middle we became the best of friends

i like her because she smiles at me n means it :)
i have lots of friend from every walks of life ..and i have many BESTFRIEND too..boys n girls n they are my boon companion..but not many of them can understand n know me well but my sabrina does!!when everyone blamed me for 'something',i will always have her back..even if i did something wrong too(which was fine to me :P it just that i sometimes refused to follow certain school's rules n i hav no apparent reasons for that..heee )..again EVEN IF I DID WRONG..but still, sabrina stood beside me,listening,sharing n giving me her full support n rarely not on my side..instead of giving me advice, solutions, or cures, she choosed rather to share my pain. shes a friend who can be silent with me in a moment of despair or confusion(always),
she often stay with me in an hour of grief and bereavement, shes who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with me the reality of our powerlessness..shes a friend who cares :') 

LETS MAKE IT SIMPLE.My sabrina is always there,lending her shoulder for me to cry me her warm hug..and even if shes away..she will still talks to me on the phone.asking me bout my wherebouts n making sure that my life is goin smooth n reminds me to always keep in touch..

Yes we are [friends] and I do like to pass the day with her in serious and inconsequential chatter.  I wouldn't mind washing up beside her, dusting beside her, reading the back half of the paper while she reads the front.  We are friends and I would miss her, do miss her and think of her very often.  I don't want to lose this happy space where I have found someone who is smart and easy and doesn't bother to check her diary when we arrange to meet.. :)

Monday, December 13, 2010

Angus & Julia Stone - New Song - I Believe in Love (Live)

i learnt my lesson,
nobody is to blame, except for you
well i learned my lesson,
where are we trying to hide
doing the best we can, in order to survive

some of us keep it simple
and some of us will deceive
we tell heartfelt stories
so we can take the things we need

some of our efforts are colourful
and some people they lose
and some people live in the shadows
so they never have to choose

you spread your darkness
like a disease
then you offered your body
as the only remedy

I believe in love
I believe in love
no darling you cant take that away from me

I believe in love
I believe in love
no darling you cant take that away from me

well you had her by the throat
you had me by the horns
you had her in the same bed
while it was still warm

well my hair still on the pillow
my music was still in the air
you didnt care, to tell her
why i had been there

well my nails still on your pillow
my clothes still on the floor
you didnt care no darling
oh how we always want more

you knew that she was scared
but you took her anyway
you told her she was everything
then you had your way

and she told you that she loved you
you told her you were tired
the things we say...
once we've got what we desire

I believe in love
I believe in love
no darling you cant take that away from me

I believe in love
I believe in love
no darling you cant take that away from me

i learnt my lesson
nobody is to blame
..except for you
everything revolves round ur preferences...

Sunday, December 12, 2010

the one in the maxi dress is my sister..


ppl tend to say that we look like a twin..heh think again peeps!

Why a Girl Should Marry an Engineer

Supposedly, all women are after a doctor, so don't expect your relationship to last more than 5 years. Eventually, he'll run off with some nurse from his office, or one of his young women patients that is pretending to be sick. He'll wait until you are stuck with a few kids to do this. This is not a problem with your engineer husband. He had a hard enough time meeting you. It is unlikely he'll ever meet another woman in his profession.

Do you seriously expect an honest, trusting relationship with someone who gets paid for lying? Once again, this is not a problem with your engineer spouse. He doesn't have enough social skills to lie convincingly. An additional drawback to marrying a lawyer is when the divorce happens you will get nothing.

See honesty segment under lawyer. Plus, he will be traveling to trade shows, etc. Where he will be in the company of other equally trustworthy individuals. Don't be surprised when you get the invitation to show up on the Ricki Lake Show. The company that your engineer husband works at will keep him in a cage, often called a cubicle, until he is ready to go home to you.

The only reason he entered this profession is so that he could be surrounded by newly post-pubescent girls who idolize him. He'll be in jail soon, and then you'll have to look for another man.

Hazardous Professions, i.e. Firefighter, Construction Worker, etc.
Your husband, if he is not dead by some accident, will likely be crippled with a back injury, etc. Just about the time you are at your sexual peak. The only hazard that your engineer husband will face is losing his eyesight by staring at the computer terminal for too long. This hazard actually has some benefits. For one, he will not notice that you are getting older, since you will be a blur. He will remember you as when he first met you, because the memory will still be sharp. And if you think he is looking at another woman, and you ask "honey, were you looking at her?", he'll honestly be able to say that he didn't even see her.

Top 10 reasons to date an Engineer:

10. The world does revolve around us... We chose the coordinate system.

9. No "couple" enjoys a better "moment".

8. We know how to handle stress and strain in a relationship.

7. We have significant figures.

6. We have taken a course on the motion of rigid bodies.

5. Projectile motion... Need we say more?

4. Engineers do it to specification.

3. According to Newton, if two bodies interact, their forces are equal and opposite.

2. We know it's not the length of the vector that counts, but how you apply the force.

1. We know the right hand rule.

"Fate takes you just as far. Destiny is when everything falls right into place and it's just up to you to make it happen."

my dream bedroom

                                                                          love  <3

Saturday, December 11, 2010

lost in my thoughts

  I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.


A million words wouldn't bring you back. I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears. I know because I've cried.Unconditional love is a beautiful thing.. untill the person you love unconditionally doesn't love you anymore.. Only then do you realize how much you loved that person and how much you have done and suffered and been through just to show that you love that person... now all seems worthless..

one day

One day you'll love me, the way I loved you. One day you'll think of me the way I thought of you. One day you'll cry for me, the way I cried for you. One day you'll want me, but I won't want you.


one day in some far off place,we will meet ~silence


Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to him forever. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

i missed them :'(

mummy fiera,dodo shahmi
Party at Ria's house

why brought us together if we were gonna be separated?(fiera)

dear..i missed u..i always do..the memories shall lie between us n i will always cherish them


someone told me that u guys missed me a lot..hehe..its okay dont be shy..i feel honoured knowing that.kekekekeke...kidding..miss u guys even more...SUMPAH,tak prcaya tanya aie ;)


stop asking me bout my r u doing n stuffs..WHY DO U CARE??haaa??U DONT CARE!DO U?

my my my

a bride to be who is being jilted at the very last sad.. wasnt me was someone else

Thursday, October 14, 2010

hee the crazy of us...

ouh..i miss her so muchh..

i came across this suddenly....

here is my small book shelter,reading is my pleasure,reading this stuff keeps me always in that dreaming,like creating a puzzle of my lovelife, for all d darkness n spookines clouding around mylife,reading is pure joy!joy in language,joy in in d mysteries of human mind and joy of getting deep into d stories n d character..

Saturday, October 9, 2010


thanx ibu for not letting me know tat we will be havin guests today...
i woke up so late this morning and too my surprised there were lots of chinese ppl cooking in our kitchen..heh...i started spinning then n knocked my head for i dreaming??
'hye good morning' sayings lined with ehem2

 and this has made me gasp n i was running back to room when realizing tat i was only wearing  my night gown and i was exposing myself to the males,n females....heh. :/


but i njoy the day ....we cooked plenty plenty of foods..n ate plenty plenty much too..hee cheers

Thursday, October 7, 2010


 i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own


You've got to give a little, take a little,
and let your poor heart break a little.
That's the story of, that's the glory of love.

Dont Cry Joni (my forever favourite song) :D

i always shared this song with all my best buddies..hope that u guys will still listen to this song if it ever cross your mind :)

for her...... Mira Edora....

Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye.

why am i meeting those :'(

They pretend they're listening
They act like they care
Fake emotions they show
And fony feelings they share

They put their arm around you
Look into your eyes
Pull you up next to them
And tell you nothing but lies

They pretend continuously
Tell you lies all day long
Then you start to realize
Something is wrong

When you start to drift apart
He completely pushes you away
When you remember the past
You wish you were back in his arms to stay

This is your typical guy!!

i wish...

i wish im cinderella....
from thegolden hairpiece,blond hair done up to the glittering off-white ball gown,slender figure,all the way down to the delicate glass shoe(not in d photo) !!perfect!....haha,its easy..i just hav to dress lyke im the cinderella..
wait!!!why when i looked at myself in the mirror cinderella did not stare back???burrrr...stop dreaming!!then wat exactly i am??although im x the cinderella im hepi  for who am not a queen,no!maybe this is how i look like....tetttttttt....
``More than ever, girls will be spending the day at the salon, getting their hair coloured, makeup applied and nails painted to match their  clothes and shoes. And in their hair they'll be wearing flowers or a tiara, or any which tat cud b hottest ticket in prom accessories or maybe they wil jus wear d hairband........but i dun hav to do all those stuffs excluding d make up... ;)
im short...i mean im not d tall type* im shy..^_^  im wearing d hijab,i wear those weird accessories,i love animal print clothes..ehh,why shud i tell all this to u guys??? u guys really wanted to noe all this!!BOOO!
okayh then,im what i am..get to noe me! ;) im me :p
ehh waitttt ..i love colourssssss..heheeee...and i love cooking..... <3